Home again!

Tyler is home again, but he might be leaving again on Wednesday :(.  He had a very good time while he was there.  He brought me home a gift that he picked out all by himself!  It was a dress and it fit perfectly.  I was so surprised by how well he did.  I hate it when he is away, but it makes me value the time I have with him even more.  Also it makes me work on myself more.  It gives us a chance to look at our relationship from a distance and correct the things in ourselves that we need to.  Here are somethings I really miss about him.  He makes life go smoother, everything seems to go nuts and out of control when he is gone.  I don't know if it is just me on edge and it just feels that way or if it is reality.  Secondly, our house isn't as scary, yes I am afraid of the dark when he isn't home and I am usually sleeping with the hall light on.  Sometimes it takes me awhile to settle down enough to fall to sleep because I am worrying about everything.  Third, I feel like I don't have a life when he isn't here.  I hate that! I'm no one when he is away.
  Sometimes I just want to turn the music up way loud and grab him and make him dance the night away with me.  Life was made for living, not enduring.  I hope we always remember that.

We no less days to sing His praise.

I'm listening to the song Grace Like Rain and it talks about how we will have forever to sing God's praises.  Tyler is in Detroit and he says the youth services are amazing!  Thousands and thousands of kids praising God, but that isn't even a glimpse of what heaven will be like.   Tyler has been so sweet while he is away. He said he bought me a present all by himself lol.  I can't wait to see what it is!  Before we started dating he went to goodwill and bought me a couple of t-shirts and then gave them to me.  lol it was probably the most unusual present I had ever received, I still have one of the shirts.  I doubt I will ever get rid of it.

I miss him

Tyler is still in Detroit and will be until Saturday.  I miss him so much. He brings this peace to my life that is hard to explain.  Every difficult situation seems easier when he is by my side.  Yesterday I read some old e-mails, back when we first started talking.  It was so good to remember those times and how I felt and where we have grown from then.  There are somethings I want to go back to. It was most certainly a check in my heart because I remember who I wanted to be to Tyler.  I wanted to be this perfect wife that always held him up and made him feel special every day. I think I have lost sight of that some. Now I tell him a lot of my dissatisfaction in things and in life.  I want to go back to that, to treat him how I always intended to but also no loose what we have grown in love during these years.  I don't want to let life get in the way of my love for him.   

Letters

I thought it would be cool to post the e-mails that we wrote back and forth in the beginning of our friendship that led into our relationship.  I will do them every so often.  Here are the first ones. :)

Thank you for the support last night.  You are now my #1 fan.  The
reason that I struck out was because when I went to bat I looked up in
the stands to get a smile out of you, you weren't there.  I was bummed
out after that and I didn't care.  
 
I gave them your ap today and put in a good word in for you, since i'm
nice all the time.  I also stole your e mail address and phone number
off of it.  OPPS!  Anyways I hope everything is going great for you and
now that you know where I work you can stop by and say hi.
 
See you soon,
 
Tyler

Well I'm sorry you guys lost.  Everyone did play pretty well though. 
There is still hope for at least one win.  I'm sorry that you struck out, now
I feel like it's my fault.  So when Chad goes crazy and teases you, you
can just say "it was elina's fault."
 
I'm painting my Dad's building for him right now and I have paint all
over my hands and clothes.  It's not real fun because the ladder keeps on
trying to kill me but oh well.  Hope this paint comes off.
 
Thank you for the good word in.  I received a call from Lois and I'm
going in to talk with her on thursday at three.
 
My day is going fairly well.  Take care and have a good one also.
 
Elina

My #1 fan
 
By the way we did win one game.  Kind of hard to believe.  And you
should feel bad about telling Chad because i've been getting calls all
day about it.  Enough about the big K.  When you get your job, you owe
me big.  Now you just have to live up to all the good things that I was
saying about you.  But i'm sure you will.
 
Have fun painting and when your done you can go paint my other house.
 
Tyler

How excited are you for the big interview?  Everything will go great. 
Just be as sweet as I HEAR you can be and smile.  What do you want to do
after the game, go get ice cream or a snow cone?  You earned it with
your volleyball skills.  
 
Tyler

Well you see I am really nervous and when I get nervous I can be really
sweet because I usually don't say anything at all.  BUT I am forcing
myself to talk today.  So your saying I'm not sweet?  That's ok though because
Josh thinks I am.  (He has to go to the dentist today and he has like 6 or 7
cavities)  He needs my finger brush.....  Anyways I can't come to the
game tonight.  I have a tae-kwon-do demonstration tonight at K-state
Manhattan at 
7:00.  My brother has really been getting onto me about skipping out on
tae-kwon-do stuff so if I skipped out tonight I would be in deep dew
dew.  
 
ELINA

I see how you are.  My number one fan should always be there for me. 
Have fun at class and i'll miss you in the stands.  I guess Gina will
take your place, since she's going.
 
Tyler

The beginning

Today is the beginning of my blog about my husband.  I hope to blog several times a week if possible about everything he means to me, what he does for me, and just about our everyday life with a focus on him. 

Right now Tyler is in Detroit for national fine arts.  It's tough having him away, but I know he is enjoying himself completely.  Tyler loves to be at big events and with the youth kids.  He sent me a picture of the youth convention they have in the evening, thousands of kids praising God.  He also sent me a picture of a free frappy or smoothie coupon one of the kids gave him. He was very excited.  Tyler loves getting a good deal, even more so then the item itself!  Tyler is loving, wonderful, and Godly.  He loves God more than me.  Thank you Tyler for everything you are.